.... ... stress is coming back
It beginning again... just as I thought I'd be able to relax for awhile... I can feel it wringing around my neck again... the merciless wire noose called stress...
Training was the one that contributed most to it... fuck, I'm so damn pressurised to perform well again... Not that I have been doing so most of the time... like how often do i perform... I just don't feel the pleasure training... Its now like I'm fulfilling a obligation... like how feel about studying... I'm obliged and I'm aware that I have responsibilities towards my team. Thats the only thing, besides my love for my teammates and filial piety to coach thats holding me on to it.
Shit... results are almost all out... I HATE losing... u can call me kiasu, but i love winning... in EVERYTHING i do... I'm a sore loser... SO WHAT CAN U DO ABOUT THAT. GOD I feel like bashing someone/thing up.
Darn... whats becoming of me... maybe i'm just becoming more expressive of my feelings... in written words, not speech. Never will u find me talking like that UH~UH!
Training was the one that contributed most to it... fuck, I'm so damn pressurised to perform well again... Not that I have been doing so most of the time... like how often do i perform... I just don't feel the pleasure training... Its now like I'm fulfilling a obligation... like how feel about studying... I'm obliged and I'm aware that I have responsibilities towards my team. Thats the only thing, besides my love for my teammates and filial piety to coach thats holding me on to it.
Shit... results are almost all out... I HATE losing... u can call me kiasu, but i love winning... in EVERYTHING i do... I'm a sore loser... SO WHAT CAN U DO ABOUT THAT. GOD I feel like bashing someone/thing up.
Darn... whats becoming of me... maybe i'm just becoming more expressive of my feelings... in written words, not speech. Never will u find me talking like that UH~UH!
2 Comments:
relax gal! it's not tt bad... it's only ur first year in vjc... train hard this year while u can...all u have to do now is to do consistent studying... dun need to mug like u're having O's or A's... haha... as long as u do all ur tutorials...u r fine... yup... :)
o ya...didnt noe tt u swear... and so expressive... hehe
shirley -hugs-
eh i tot i posted my comment? where did it go? o ya... hm... i would give u the same advice..tok it out.. it's gd to share ur feelings... i understand wad u mean..read some of ur posts...i'm the same..cant crap like cheryl... she gets so many frens probably becoz of tt... n i'm envious too... well, i had similar experiences when i first came into vjc... it's very different..it's like if u wan to do well for ur exams, u gotta mug almost like u're taking O's... and it was realli bad for me coz i was such a slacker in tkgs... failing all my tests and scrapped thru my impt exams... going to jc is so diff... i realised tt i have to do consistent studying.. doing tutorials helped a lot... as compared to my otehr frens who dun do them, life is much easier when u study for exams... basically taking every impt exam in vjc is like taking anotehr O's for me... it's tough..but it's not tt bad... just gotta get used to it... and go relax urself when u feel stressed...i slack a lot till now... ahah pool every fri when i was in year1... i dun believe muggign all day n nite...i dun do tt during my holidays.. it'll be mroe like a study break... and erm... about softballers... well, u all have just met new pple, new frens.. it's onli natural to feel a bit more distant from each other... well, at least u still go out with them rite? i havent even went out with jan n cheryl like for a movie or sth... especially cheryl..she's lie my closest team mate.. quite a pity..but we've got our own social cricle, own lives too eh? look on the brite side... it aint tt bad... yup... if u need to tok things out.. i'll be here! :)
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