blind as a bat

Whoa... almost thought I lost my specs for good... Was walking around in the house w/o specs nor contacts searching for my specs case... Then I imagined dropping it while I was alighting from the bus, or perhaps when I was running to the bus stop, or maybe it dropped onto the car when my bag fell. In the end, my maid produced the case almost magically from the drawer. I didn't even bring it out of the house! .... sheesh....

Had training in the morning... How should I put it... my throw didn't improve much... maybe it declined... There's a new addition to my family of blisters... Was very pissed with my fielding, especially after coach compared me with the juniors. Left early with Jo and Jess... They were helping out with busking. Me? haha... Just slacking. And I lied right smack in coach's face w/o even blinking. Whoa... hahaha! then she started nagging abit at me... Saying how I could become the "Incredible Hulk" or wadever if I did my stuff properly... Then she reminded me for the umpteenth time that my throw has to be like of a whip. Then I started to feel guilty... She was always so forgiving and good to me... N I've nv once lived up to her expectations... Do u know how perturbed I feel? I wana be angry at her, but i just... can't. Its a dead knot inside me... I don't know how I feel. I just feel like bashing someone up.

Ber came home with me... we bathed lunched then went out to watch them busk. Along the way, she asked me Y i wuz so moody... n she tried to cheer me up... and seriously, I was so touched by her efforts... felt much better after she talked me through...This proved and enhanced my belief that I cannot do without my dearest teammates... they're my pillars of support besides my family... removing them would mean the end of me. I really hope we can stay this close forever.

After that I went Bukit Timah...for U KNOW WHAT... sheeshz... Dun wana talk about it... Then went to centrepoint for dinner. Lemme tell you something... I'm seriously senile... I couldn't even remember if I locked the car door when I left after taking something.. so for the whole 2 hours I was so worried that some thief would raid my car..(well.. my mom's car actually)... AND... when i was tearing the coupon, I accidentally pressed on the 8am slot instead of the 8pm slot. So U can imagine me being doubly distraught walking around in centrepoint, praying that some ticket lady or theif would not find my car... okok not my car... Luckly I didn't find a flap of white paper on the windscreen, nor did I return to a ransacked car. PhEW...

Suzanne's birthday is coming up in 2 days time! 12july... I feel so ashamed... She's been giving me stuff these 2 yrs... and for no particular reason at all... I still remember the pig i got from her.. I was so stunned! So i better get her a present this yr! haha... she's my idol!!! She's bold, daring, cool and a piano genius! She's nice most of the time, 'cept when she's pissed(come on.. who is nice when he's peeved), n did i mention that she has this really graceful pitching form that delivers a breakneck solid ball?!?!? WAHH!!! DAMN COOL!

Hey thanx shirley, If u're reading this... thanks for everything, for encouraging me, for trying to cheer me up, for being so sprightly and pervasive in its influence, for teaching me stuff.. u're a great senior!! luv yaz...

KKz.. gotta do my leg.