have you ever felt so lost, dejected, disappointed, confused, pissed or frustrated till your chest hurts so bad, till you feel a tight, aching feeling in your throat, till tears swell up in your eyes and overflows, till you just feel like ending it all...

I m overloaded... ... i kant take it ANYMORE

You know how it is, that greenhorns start with nothing, and slowly work their way up the laddder, improving as they move along? I aint like that.... I start off ok, and climb up for awhile, then i continue sliding all the way down. Its been proven. Its like that for softball, my skills are freakingly sucky for someone who has played for 5 years... Its like that for studies, I feel i'm getting "stupidier" by the moment...

know whats really breaking me... its that i really love something, but i just can't seem to do better or i start to deprove... I love bio, but my memory's getting worse... I love chem, but i'm getting so pissed, out of 10 questions i attempt, less than 5 i get right... I love math but i'm starting to lose that flare... I think i love softball, but the way my performance fluctuates 180 degrees, i really dread training many atimes...

Kant be bothered bout SPA though... for the 4th Skill B attempted, this is the 4th time i've totally screwed up... I WAS upset, but heck, I CANT BE BOTHERED ANYMORE.

My heart's heavy... It feels as if its falling through a bottemless pit. I hate free falls.

bool stressed (schoolwork, PW, training, exams, computing project)
{
do
{ PUNCH THE BLOODY F****** WALL.
Find a sandbag. Find a human punching bag.
BAsh someone up. Jump down a building
}while ((stressed=true)&&(inmydreams));

for (int i=0;i=infinity;i++)
cout << "Life SUCKS ";
}