Long day. Tiring day. Enlightening day. Depressing day.

Woke up so early to go for NTU's open house. HEY.. i dont really see what Mary was complaining about. Well, apart from being SUPER ulu, i think its perfectly ok. And the courses there seem more interesting than NUS'.... Ah.. some people like to have opinions formed, and they stay stubborn to their opinions. Maybe i used to be like that. But i'm glad that i've changed.

Stubborn. fuck man. this stupid word. now i'm stuck in between.
WHY MUST U 2 BE SO STUBBORN. ONE'S WRONG, BUT SHE'S ALWAYS BEEN LIKE THAT. SHE HAS NO RIGHT TO FORCE U, YES ITS HER FAULT. BUT WHY MUST U ALWAYS TRY TO AVOID HER? AND SAY BAD THINGS ABOUT HER. I DONT LIKE IT WHEN U BADMOUTH HER, AND HATE IT WHEN SHE COMPLAINS TO ME BOUT U. BOTH ARE PEOPLE THAT I LOVE N RESPECT. I'M FUCKING STUCK IN BETWEEN. I'M GETTING REAL TIRED BEING THE MIDDLE MAN. I NEED A BREAK TOO.

i'm going to be real busy next week with softball. But i shall be happy and optimistic about it. I shall enjoy it. I shall treasure the time i have left with the team. I shall love my teammates n juniors n seniors n coaches. and i shall FINISH MY FREAKING VIDEO!!!!